But you know what's funny is...

[BUMP]

Hey guys,
there is a big story behind all this, but i'll tell you only what matters now to me the most.

She cheated on me with my best friend, i forgave her, she then dumped me few weeks later and now they are sleeping together at her place.

It goes for over a mounth now, and i kid you not, every day i cant sleep well because i am thinking of how he is probably doing my girl right now, my ex girl.

Its sick maybe i dont know, it feels horrible, every night i feel betrayed and take pills to fall a sleep and then i see nightmares of how they do it and i wake up at 04:00 and need to take additional pills and wait hour for them to work...

I am not angry at them, infact i kinda forgave them and we still talk, i just want her to be happy. The NC doesnt work anyway because we see us often in the university and she needs my help in some homework.

What should i do...

[Leetonidas]

Sooooo beta :lol

[baseline bum]

Are you a ninth year junior right now? One you get that far along those classes are harder and you should at least charge her $20-$30 an hour for the tutoring.

[BUMP]

11th year senior tbh, I was supposed to graduate in Spring, but I have to retake Senior Seminar and it's only offered once a year so I'm still here til next Fall.

Since I'm here in the Spring I plan on pursuing additional classes to complete my minor in Cross Cultural Literature

[AchillesHeel]

I can imagine myself walking in the sunset, holding hands and smiling. Hearing the crash of the waves as a gentle breeze flows through my body and hair. Walking miles and miles, while the moon rises high into the sky. The whole world is asleep, but I am the only one living a dream. The graceful peace, settling into my heart. For once I actually feel alive. This is what it should feel like. This is how you're supposed to live. A longing sense of comfort. And as we lay on the sand staring into the night sky, the stars become brighter and multiply. Soon enough, the dark sky is brightened by each star's shine. We close our eyes, hand in hand and lie in a moment of silence when all we can hear in the background is the calm waves alining upon the shore and the light night breeze. We make a wish and lie together in a few more moments, appreciating eachother for everything we are. We then both open our eyes to the diamond-like sky, staring for a brief moment as we then both turn to eachother, lying on our sides. I am looking into your eyes and you are looking into mine. I look at every inch of your body, then interlocking my eyes into yours once again. I inhale as you take a deep breath. I then begin to speak in a soft whisper. I tell you this is everything. You are all I've wanted. You were in all my dreams. You love me the way I wanted. You care for me like no one else has. I appreciate everything you've ever done for me, everything you've spent on me, everything you've said to me and everything you've felt for me. You are the only one I want. I am in love with you. Please keep me forever. Locked away in the eternity of time. You are different. You give me ideas. Thoughts, feelings, unlived visions of places I've never been or never knew existed, walking beside you in every one. It may be simple to state how I feel about you and say I love you a thousand times, but it is all too complex to fully give you the understanding of the meaning of the immense amount of love and appreciation I have for you. I tell you you're the one. You're everything anyone could ever ask for. I am thankful to have you in my life. I love you. I then pause and look into your eyes. You don't say anything. You can see the moon reflecting onto the calm ocean. A warm chilling feeling flows throughout my body as I watch you begin to slowly close your eyes and bring your body closer to me. Your face inching towards mine. As I close my eyes, I take one deep breath, tasting the chilled ocean air. I slowly bring myself closer to you, as you put your arms around me. I can feel your body heat and your soft hands touching my body. Our lips then touch. We kiss. Passionate, gentle, everlasting. This one kiss expresses all my thoughts, feelings, emotions and every little detail of every little existing idea, dream, form of all the words and feelings that I've developed for you. That moment, it was all unveiled. We lied there for minutes, sharing this dream we both created together. As we slowly move our faces away, I lay my head upon your shoulder and your arms around my body. The night had never seemed so bright and beautiful up until this day. It's like the world turned and everything completely changed. Everything was clear and I can actually breathe and feel each beat of my heart pound against my chest, as the blood slowly flows through my body. I can feel, hear, touch, taste, see, smell and understand everything, in what now feels like what is heaven. Lifelessly floating on a cloud, feeling fully alive. The feeling of being so unrealistically content and that a perfect life and person can exist is far beyond anything I could have ever perceived. You are my savior and meaning for existance. I thank you for everything you will do and being there, always. We lie, staring into the sky feeling the air get colder as the night becomes later. It doesn't bother me though. My body is filled with a warming sense of completion. Everything I'd dreamed of having is fulfilled, finally. I close my eyes and daydream once again of having and sharing this same exact moment with you. Soon enough the stars slowly fade away as the sky becomes lighter and the light of the sun pierces through the sky, slowly rising as time repeats itself once again. But this time is new. The feeling of being reborn into a life that you feel you've lived every single day. It feels so right. Life is beautiful with you. I appreciate things much more thoroughly. I love you. I always will.

[Michael Jordan.]

:lol who wrote that

[HI-FI]

Marty on cheating bitches.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tiHTm6nBUw

[Leon Black]

I gotta take a shit

[m>s]

Sup juan

[DMC]

Things I have learned about myself and my latest RS and BU:
• I have weak boundaries
• I have very low self-esteem / self-worth regarding certain critical areas of my life
• I make poor decisions
• In my RS, the emotional investment was completely one-sided
• My ex was emotionally unwilling / uninterested
• My ex used me while working through her own challenges, then quit me
• My ex did not love me, but used me as a crutch and for support only
• My ex deceived and manipulated me
• I was familiar, comfortable and secure for my ex
• I was merely a variable in an equation
• I based my decisions and emotional investment on fantasy, illusion and fabrication
• I ignored many red-flags
• I ignored being treated poorly
• I was afraid of being single and losing an attractive, younger woman
• I was addicted to the RS and my ex
• I was co-dependent

[Rogue]

It's not all about being beta, it's also what true love means imho. Seems OP really loves that bitch (if he's not trolling :lol) so he still wishes her the best despite what she had done to him. You can still be friends, albeit not as boyfriend and girlfriend anymore imho.

[N0 LyF3 ScRuB]

dude?

whoop his ass and/or get some ass and say fuck that girl.

[benefactor]

It's ok brah. life goes on. I remember once, when I was 14, my ex and I had planned our whole lives together. We were supposed to have fluffy dogs and a robot bartender and live in a huge mansion. I drew pictures of that mansion and that bartender daily and almost cried the first time she let me hold her hand. She meant everything to me. I called her every night before I went to sleep to tell her how much I loved her, and whenever I'd masturbate, I pictured her wearing only her training bra and half the time I wouldn't even finish because the thought of me being with her was satisfying enough. Then, one day, she called me and said that she was cheating on me with the entire cross country team. To this day, I'm still not sure how that's physically possible, but she did it. She now has 2 kids with 2 different men and I would still take her back if she'd have me. But alas, she won't return my nightly calls, and it seems the box of kittens I left on her porch were snatched by a hungry raccoon before she got home. But it's ok. Life goes on.

[ezau]

:lmao

[BUMP]

^:rollin

[ElNono]

crofl

[Rogue]

It's ok brah. life goes on. I remember once, when I was 14, my ex and I had planned our whole lives together. We were supposed to have fluffy dogs and a robot bartender and live in a huge mansion. I drew pictures of that mansion and that bartender daily and almost cried the first time she let me hold her hand. She meant everything to me. I called her every night before I went to sleep to tell her how much I loved her, and whenever I'd masturbate, I pictured her wearing only her training bra and half the time I wouldn't even finish because the thought of me being with her was satisfying enough. Then, one day, she called me and said that she was cheating on me with the entire cross country team. To this day, I'm still not sure how that's physically possible, but she did it. She now has 2 kids with 2 different men and I would still take her back if she'd have me. But alas, she won't return my nightly calls, and it seems the box of kittens I left on her porch were snatched by a hungry raccoon before she got home. But it's ok. Life goes on.
bene my bro, I have total sympathy for you. I remember when I was in high school I developed a strong crush on a bitch in our class, she looked incredibly good (still one or two levels below my goddess but better than 99% of population tbh) and she was kind of a neighbor of mine because her home was like just several hundred meters from mine. The thought of me and her drinking the same stream of tap water was sweet and wonderful tbh, living in the same block, even sharing the same zip-code etc... but as you know, my affection evolved into nothing. I wasn't sure if she had the same strong feeling for me or not, she probably didn't give a shit about me, not at all, or she was just too shy to approach me just like I was. She was the first bitch that I so strongly and genuinely loved, and probably also the last one as well. I was so disappointed I totally gave up a man's god-given privilege to love bitches, and that was probably the main reason I chose to be a lifelong celibate, if not the only reason. I just lost faith in love...

And when my college years began, I somehow spotted another bitch, not as good as the high-school one but still very fine, far better than average tbh. Difference was, this time I was sure that she loved me and it was so obvious that all my classmates had seen it and known it. I felt slightly attracted to her but not very strongly, and I tried my best to ignore her flirting, hoping that she would give up on me some point later. But she didn't, she kept her full attention on me throughout the four years without ever considering any other dude... Yet I remained an asshole all the time, snubbing her time and time again. :cry I really feel sorry for her, even guilty, I would even kill myself if that could somehow please her a bit. She kind of wasted her best four years as a girl on a worthless piece of shit that I was.

I don't regret though, and regretting wouldn't make any difference either. I'll look forward to the future, just like you said, life goes on. I've chosen to be a lifelong celibate, as a punishment for being such an asshole in the past maybe, or maybe just as a method of assuaging the guilt in my heart. I snubbed her because I had vowed to be a lifelong celibate, not that i didn't like her or that she wasn't good. :cry

If I could choose again, however, I would behave as a normal man should... give her my shoulder to lay her head on, and my chest to rub her face against. I'd let her hear how strongly my heart throbs with her slender body in my arms, her scent sneaking into my nose... but that would never happen in my life time, ever.

the fact is that people will never miss those real valuable things until they no longer have them... You're innocent when you only think of your ex, bene, but if I were you I'd stop trying phone calls to her or leaving any stupid kittens on her porch. You have a wife and a nubile daughter, bro, a family that I'd never ever have in my life, you have every right to feel proud and to make others feel envious. I could've got myself some sort of true love while I was in college, but I let the chances pass by, all of them.

but just as you said, life goes on.

[m>s]

Hey guys,
there is a big story behind all this, but i'll tell you only what matters now to me the most.

She cheated on me with my best friend, i forgave her, she then dumped me few weeks later and now they are sleeping together at her place.

It goes for over a mounth now, and i kid you not, every day i cant sleep well because i am thinking of how he is probably doing my girl right now, my ex girl.

Its sick maybe i dont know, it feels horrible, every night i feel betrayed and take pills to fall a sleep and then i see nightmares of how they do it and i wake up at 04:00 and need to take additional pills and wait hour for them to work...

I am not angry at them, infact i kinda forgave them and we still talk, i just want her to be happy. The NC doesnt work anyway because we see us often in the university and she needs my help in some homework.

What should i do...

sounds like you need to read some return of kings brother

[Bob Stoops]

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[ElNono]

^ one of my favorite trolls, tbh.... stooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooops :lol

[m>s]

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[BUMP]

that guy seems to be lacking sleeves tbh

[DUNCANownsKOBE]

that guy seems to be lacking sleeves tbh

How's OT doing? Is a 4-peat in order?

[BUMP]

:lol it's gonna be close. the dynasty is in serious jeopardy

[m>s]

my seismograph is picking up serious activity in this thread

[BUMP]

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[Rogue]

seems bene and I are the only two posters who posted seriously in this thread, tbh. :lol