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Wow, what a turn around from canceronadonkey
Grats man, on the wedding and on your new life
Saturday, which technically is tomorrow, will be 6 months I will be sober. It has been a surreal experience for me. I never thought I could make it six days without some sort of chemical indulgence much less six months. I have been able to experience a full range of emotions during this period. From the total joy of getting engaged and planning a wedding (which happens one week from today and will definetely be the greatest day of my life so far) to the heartbreak of having to put my best friend of 10 years down. The one constant in my life of turmoil was my dog and he had gotten to a point of physical deterioration that was unbearable to watch. Being able to experience life on life's terms is a something that is completely new to me and has made me appreciate the life that was given to me.
The greatest gift in my life came by the way of a rollover that happened at 5pm on a drunken Sunday afternoon on Prue Road. Having survived an accident that could have easily been a fatal one gave me the slap in the face that I needed to finally do what deep down I wanted to do for years. The only fatality in that accident was that of midgetonadonkey. An alter ego I had on these forums that was really just a reflection of the bitterness, anger, rage, shame, guilt and fear that had lived deep within me for years and had completely overtaken me. I have learned to come to terms with these issues and have completely altered my way of thinking and my life to try and never return to that point again. I learned that I didn't have a drinking problem, I had a living problem. The drinking and drugging was just a symptom.
I now try to live every day the way I was meant to live it. Free of resentments, anger, fear and dishonesty. This is the key to me freedom from the drink and I will continue to try and live this way each day for the rest of my life. I may not always adhere to these principles, sometimes I do get some of those negative emotions back, but each day I try to deal with these in a different way and no longer resort to the drink as an escape. The emotions I feel are a natural part of being human and it feels damn good to be human again after all these years.
Thank you Sandra for all you have done for me and for standing by me through all my bull and for seeing past my issues and seeing me for the man that I am trying my hardest to be. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you, one day at a time.
Last edited by Dr. Gonzo; 03-06-2009 at 02:19 AM.
Wow, what a turn around from canceronadonkey
Congrats!
PS: You posted a fabulous cranberry sauce recipe here a few years ago and I still make it every Thanksgiving.
Wow, I didn't know the story behind the name change.
I had noticed a change in your posts in the past months. Not better or worse, just different.
If substance avoidance creates improvement in all areas of your life, stick with it yo!
Yowwza Steven, I'm really impressed!!! Congratulations!!! Best wishes to you and Sandra for the rest of your lives together!!!
It's been inspiring watching you change your life to be who, and where, you want to be. Congrats on the six months, and I wish you and Sandra the best.
Congrats!! Here's to your continued successes in life and love
Congrats man.
That's awesome possum. I haven't done tweak in like almost two years.
If it works for you.
Damn dude 6 months!!! I remember when you told me when you stopped and it feels like yesterday. Kick ass man, when we go watch some minor league baseball cokes and hotdogs on me. I quit drinking coke so water for me.
Congrats to you and may you have a blissful marriage ...
Way to go man.
Congratulations. Keep it to continue!
Congrats.
maybe u should channel ur addiction to something else....like porn hahaha
Congratulations on your milestone Steven. I do miss Midge sometimes, but it sounds like if you had kept going the way you were that it was just a matter of time before he went away one way or another. Glad you're with us, new and improved.
Six months is pretty impressive when you think about he cut it off cold turkey.
So you are going to school to do the same thing Peewee is doing?
I wouldn't necessarily call it cold turkey. I had a little help from a recovery center and from some dude named Bill W.
Thanks for all the well wishes everybody.
6 months is still 6 months. Still pretty impressive. Just stay away from Atrain when it comes to gambling because I am starting to think he is bad luck at any table.
Midge kinda grew on me, but you're okay too
Congratulations.
Congrats, man.
We're all proud of you.
congrats!
That is fantastic ... congratulations!
That's cool homie. To your continued success
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