You must spend a LOT of time thinking about cu bers to even parse the word to get you going! That's just weird! Even if you are gay, that's still weird. You want to know too much about other men, I've told you, "I'm STRAIGHT" that means, NOT like you. Get it? Surely they have a gay/lesbian board for you to share your cu ber escapades with. Search for it, you need to open up to those who share your interests. You DO get quite emotional about cu bers, don't you? Surely there are other kinky pervs who would LOVE you for their buddy. You're barking up the wrong tree here tho missy. Don't be ashamed of who you are, TELL THE WORLD THAT YOU'RE GAY AND LIKE CU BERS DAMMIT! You'll feel better, I'm sure of it! Good luck with that.