I'm not DD, just a human being who is enjoying life to the fullest and interested in getting others to do the same.
That's wonderful that your grandparents are still alive, that means you are likely still young and have a lot of life left to live! I'm not going to go back and forth trading insults with you brother, because it is like throwing meat to the dogs. I will instead present to you an anecdote...
I was once you, Kool Bob. I posted here for awhile, scoffing other people's misfortune. I briefly would geel on top of the world, masturbating in one hand, typing vicious insults on the other. I was often referred to as an elite poster on this site. But I still felt empty inside. I knew one day my parents would pass away, I would lose a job, and I would probably get screwed over by a girl. These were just illusions Kool Bob. These would all pass one day. I felt like young Gautanama sitting in DET temple not taking part with the temptations of wining and dining with friends, family, etc. I knew eventually everything around me would pass and we would all grow old and die. Even these current internet e-victories will lead to suffering later on (constantly checking threads, anxiety from not being the best spurstalker, guilt because you could've burned monosylab1k better, etc)
Same thing with spurstalk, brother. All this elite poster stuff will pass. These are just pixels on a computer screen and we are just a bunch of electrons randomly bumping into each other. The only two constans are the
isvara and the
jivas so unfortunately we are not truly free. I encourage you to turn away, once and for all, from these passing illusion Kool Bob, and find The Middle Way.
I recommend the
Bhagavad-Gita to start off with Kool Bob. You can start today KBL!! Stop giving in to your passions, and let the supreme controller take over. Relax... Let go of your ego. Realize that we are all empty and that, Kool Bob Love, is when we finally become full.
I look forward to hearing more about your journey, brother
