Wild Cobra, you're right. My college advisors were terrible. With that being said, it was ultimately me that listened to the ty terrible advice. In high school and college, I was too trusting and naive and gave people the benefit of the doubt too easily. I shouldn't have listened to the advice that I got. I should have thought things through and created a better plan for my future. However, I didn't and I'm paying the price for it right now. In life you don't get do overs.
My main problem is confidence. I basically have none and I'm paranoid out of my mind about trusting people. I always think that bad things are going to happen no matter what and it's gotten to the point that I never really get happy or can have a good time for too long because in the back of my mind, I think something bad is going to happen. I have had a lot of failures, setbacks, and disappointments in the last 10 years that it's changed me into what I am today. Even with that being said, I know I have to change. If I don't change, I will go full on bat crazy and will have to go to the looney bin. So basically, I have to change. The problem is I don't know how to change. I wouldn't know where to start. I need to be positive and try to look at things with a better perspective and not be so paranoid but it's an extremely hard habbit to break when you've been doing it for so long.

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