It was 4 pages of you trying to tell someone who caved your innards in they were wrong while exposing a deep rooted inferiority complex. Of course you're going to get laughed at, you were a big joke in that thread.
You can continue on about something from the past and use words like "we"to help yourself not feel so alone and all the other typical coping mechs you bust out like some swear words and smileys. I don't really care, but you really, really will.