When you enter narrator mode, it's obvious you want/need an audience to come to your side.
"We all"... there it is again
"You're alone"
"No one will care when you die"
"This is all you have"
" ty life"
etc...
Bonnerific's go-to retorts. Obviously you think those comments affect people. It makes me think you were abandoned and have a fear of being alone, a fear of dying alone. Maybe you have a fear of separation because the rest of the family abandons you daily while you sit in your underwear and peck away on your laptop online, as they go out and actually do things. "We're going shopping" they say.. "Do you want me to tag along?" he says, raising forward in his well worn chair, the peanut s s falling off of his chest and onto the floor... "No, we won't be gone long" they say, looking at each other with that "we just dodged a bullet" stare. Dejected, he slumps back into his chair.. "If you go to that barbeque place, bring me a couple large chopped beef sandwiches, 3 rolls, a large peach cobbler and a diet coke" he says, not looking up from his laptop. "Ok. that's fine. Well, we're leaving"...they say. "Have fun" he says.. not even sure if he thought it or said it. As the door closes he knows they won't be back before well after dark, and he's now facing another day alone.
Bogie to the rescue...