I wish man, I wish i could, but this thing was everything or nothing for me, I put all of me, all my happiness, all my life, all my will, all everything depend on this... This disappointment, the way we lost it and what it mean about the duncan era, it just burned me and my soul totally, and I speaking as someone who went through lot of life pain, someone who went through quite a rough and miserable life, but that also what make it harder, cause through all that road in the playoff I thought and felt more and more that here is coming my compensation for my life, that all the bad i go through were preparation for this moment to be the biggest bliss, the ultimate joy, somthing who will bring to me an eternity tranquility... But than it made clear that it was all made up to abuse me only further and much more in cruel manner, that I'm the most cursed person in the world, to lose le game like that is only could be by curse, it's not reasonable what happened...